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a friend of mine once asked about my love life on the past. no words i could explain. i stucked on this question, this was a thousand times harder than math on the white board. it freezed my lips. all the memories came recalled on sudden. i tried to look normal, and i said, "i got no ex" and tried to laugh. the bitterest laugh ever popped out this mouth. i've never been in a serious relationship. the boys keep coming and leaving in a clap. i can't hold em, just like seasons. they keep changing and i am tolerating em. 2 rules were on in this relationship. they love me, i pretend to love em & i play em before they break me. boys just waste my time, and they dont actually deserve it

i wished you everything

on the 26th of october at the morning. i came to your house, knocking at the door and came in. i saw you slept, and tried so hard to make no noise.  i lighted up the candle. and carried the cake. i kissed you on the cheek. and said "happy sweet seventeen my prince" you woke up. i was the first you saw when you opened your eyes. you called my name. and said "thank you my princess" you kissed me back and kept saying how happy you were. then suddenly,
BAM
the teacher woke me up. pushing me back to face the reality. thrusting on me to leave my perfect dreamland. realizing me on where i am right now. "happy birthday kak" "ok thanks" was the truth. there were no cake, the princess-prince thingy, even the kisses. he's just way too far.

never combine a heroine with a cocaine. they will fuck you up for life

xxxxxx says:
fy, he's gonna hve his bday 2morrow. what will ya do?

Afaf Dini says:
errr stiil dk. but the first thing that popped out on my mind is try to forget him

xxxxxx says:
wat th fuck he has done 2 make u said those stuffs, hun? tell me :x

Afaf Dini says:
nothing 

xxxxxx says:
err, idont really get it

Afaf Dini says:
you wont understand

xxxxxx says:
dare me

Afaf Dini says:
hes just too effin addicted and i'm sure i dont want to fall for the other drugs. i mean, ive once being hurted and i dont want to fail for the second. once feels enough and the pain still on my chest. it's just too hard for me to fall for more. i'm his fan. his biggest fan. and i wont change myself to be a lover. is this enough?

xxxxxx says:
idk what to write

Afaf Dini says:
so do i

xxxxxx says:
iv gtg. anything left you need 2 say. text me hun

Afaf Dini says:
k, thanks dear. A lot

xxxxxx says:
love. xx

Afaf Dini says:
byes

what a conversation