sucking with cigarette, sitting at the corner of the room, looking at them, and they don't realized that you are there. feels suck

i caught myself

sitting alone

sucking with cigarette

another cigarettes

while they were having fun

laughing at each other

without notice I was there too

and the bad side is

there was my best friend too

or maybe, people who-i-called-best-friend

dissapointed

angry

incredulous

all mixed together

and all i get from this

is

that he is NOT someone i've been looking for

perhaps?

and i'm about to tell you what happened yesterday night, so stay tuned

yesterday about 11 AM, Beany came to my house while i was sleeping and he ruled my computer of and kind of wanted to ruin it. playing with him untill the clock shows 2 PM and we went straight to Kelapa Gading Mall and spending some times. first, we went to Cold Stone which one of my dream for this time, and we went to book store, Beany wanted to buy some comics. and blablabla we went to Farmer's Market, i went along with him wanted to buy a some kind of man parfumme that smells like chocolate. well of all you know. AXE. rofl. and blablabla i forgot what we've done after and Niko texted me that he was there too and am so glad to meet him. i miss him badly anyway. and guess what? he was there with my ex-crush. he celebrated his 3 months anniversary with his gf anyway. and his girlfriend was there too. that was bad, and what makes my mood even worse is that i passed by and i saw them looking so great. blablabla. we met Ica and Maruf and they joined blablabla we stopped at Bengawan Solo. ica bought hot green tea remains he was sick yesterday and i bought simply caramel who got finished by Beany. ang i got to buy something and Beany went with me, we went to Watson's, a place about everything girl's. and Beany just got caught by his friends shopped at Watson's and Beany got ashmed, Beany got ashmed, and i laughing out loud. evertything was clear and we walked outside so we could watch the carnaval was going. at the middle we went to dairy queen and bought a hot dog. and went back to the carnaval. we drowned at a human-sea. and blablablabla it's time to FIRE WORKS. it's so deep for me, and when Beany said, "Malem ini panjang ya" his sentence has been noted in my brain. i love that sentence. but once again, i will never tell him -.- and when our energy gone to the lowest point, we decided to back home, belle's. we picked to walk by foot. we passed by on Mcd Drive Thru and that's some kind of remains me of some thing :P and we stopped on Dunkin Donut and bought some drinks for us. and continued to walk. that night really left me beautiful memory before i leave this school. until i figured out that someone that WILL ruin my day, mood, everything was there too. and yep true, she ruined everything. and before we went to belle's house. we stopped at branch and did 'something' :P LOL THIS ONE WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN REALLY. and today wasn't really excited actually, yesterday was the best <3